Over Optimistic

Journal Entry - January 6, 2012

A new year!  Maybe the year we bring the rest of our family home. Over optimistic I know, but it's a new year, let me be optimistic :)

We have everything for our home study done. RCMP check, vulnerable sector check, OPP police check, medical exams, psychological test done. Now we just have to wait to finish up our home study with Glory. Then we can send one big package to Mission of Tears and hopefully get this show on the road.

I'm having moments of doubt throughout this. When I wonder if we are doing the right thing if we do this. Then I remind myself that I have felt like this before. Like when I married Steve, when we had Evan, when we moved to the Ranch. It seems my nature is pessimistic. My hope is optimistic. My God is optimistic.

Evan had a funny moment last night. He asked if an adoption from Haiti was the same as a Canadian adoption. Will whoever we get be his full brother/sister. Like Nathan.

I said of course. I don't think it dawned on him that is would be his brother or sister too, not just our son or daughter. He was processing through them looking different etc.

I wonder if part of God's big plan for our family was to teach us about adoption and adopted love through Nathan.

Waiting in great anticipation!