So many questions

Journal Entry ~ March 6th, 2011

Well, a few emails are bouncing about. We are looking for someone to do our homestudy, two replies so far. I also need to figure out if we have our PRIDE training or equivalency. 

There are two agencies in Canada that deal with Haiti. The one in Toronto is not currently affiliated with HCRM (the orphanage where Steve & Evan were) but the secretary will talk to the director about it. The other agency is in Alberta. 

I have so many questions right now. So many I don't want to ask outloud. Will Steve still want to do this if we can't adopt the girl he thinks is right for our family? Do I want to do this if we can't have her?

It's funny the emotion that is already tied up in this. At times I am so overwhelmed with sadness that one of my children is hungry and cold today, and at the same moment I wonder if we'll even be able to get her here.

It really does come back to this....if God wants us to do this, it will happen. There isn't a whole lot we can do. I am still worried about the money. The Lord reminded me today that money isn't a big deal to him. I also know that when I die and talk to the Lord about what I've done with my money, that I won't feel like this was frivolous. 

Lord help me to listen and to position myself to hear you and receive what you want to give me.